BEYOND THE PARAMETER

It’s only the memoir of the day when I was entirely puzzled by my apprentices... It’s only a part with my life that imprinted me…
THE MEMOIR BEGINS:

        I was encountered by those unique faces. I was being colloid with those sole faces. I was really bewildered. “Phuyal Sir, This is your task," said the senior level responsible.  I was pleased. I was pleased with the joining letter ‘SIR’, before my name. I was really proud. He showed my task and went somewhere. I went there to teach. I had my own problem to be as a teacher. My father can’t earn the money that is required for my study of master’s level. He was a retired officer. So, I myself had to earn for my livelihood, plus I had to manage certain money for my study. I was also not a child instead I was adult. I should as well learn to be independent rather surviving in parents’ salary. When I entered the class, I was appreciated by those new faces somehow like “Good Morning Sir.  . . ” When my step reaches in the middle of the room, I was really, puzzled by those different faces. After few minutes, English Departments’ head asked me for permission for allowing him to be inside. Before some years, I used to ask for my teachers for coming inside classroom; however, today I was asked. This again elated me. I allowed him, and he went to the last workbench of the class. I was known that he was there for checking my teaching pattern. He asked me for teaching something to the students…I taught the students about ‘Subject Verb Concord’ because I was a bit known to this chapter. I was teaching them with no edginess. However, I was edgy on the meantime.  My anxiety reached its top when the invigilator who sat on the last bench left the class in the middle of the running class. I thought he was dissatisfied by my teaching. I was worried. When the invigilator ran out of the class, students start to clamor. They began to make noise. They started laughing. They started cracking jokes. My mind couldn't draw concentration for teaching. I had the impression that they were mocking at me; they were snickering at me. In the middle of the class one student raised the hand and asked for the permission to ask a question. I gave the permission. He said, “Can you please give the exception that doesn't agree “Subject-Verb agreement." Now, I got bewildered. Let’s say I was in great soliloquy. I was in a dilemma that what I should answer to him?? Thank God! The bell resonated. I made him to wait for the next day. He sat down. I moved away from the class.

      On the way to office room, I felt myself that teaching isn't an easiest task rather it is the more difficult task than other because one should tackle with many curiosities of many curious faces. We should be talent enough to teach. We should be able to answer the questions from the students on the mean-time except in some cases. When I reached office room, I was told that I had been called by senior level in charge, which again made me uneasy. I thought that they had noticed my confusion, uneasiness and awkwardness on the class-room. I went to his room, but the things get altered. He greeted me with big CONGRATULATIONS! I was shocked. I was really stunned. My happiness changes into the tears and the nervousness fled away. My happiness knew no bounds. Then I promised to myself that I should do something for this job. I have to leave some decent footprints on this school.  Then I began my teaching career. After a few days, I went to the identical class where I started my first class on the primary day of teaching. They respected me as alike they did on initial day. Now, I already became familiar to them in some extent. I asked them how I was looked on the first day. How was my impression on that day? They answered me on this way: Some aforementioned, “We thought that you couldn't teach well.” Some expressed" How can this scoundrel teach us?” I raised the question to them “Why?” They answered me” Because of your nervousness, your red face and so on...” Then I was known how much a person tries to express something with no nervousness, though he was full of nervousness internally; he cannot! I was the perfect example for this. However, the things got dire change. Now, I teach them in a nice way. I use to teach them with my full devotion. Though I was thought incapable earlier, I turned out to be a capable one. I was unsuited in their hierarchy. I was unsuitable on their parameter for ranking an individual. I was beyond their parameter…From this memoir; I just want to say that no one should be graded upon the basis of their face and facial expressions. No one should be ranked with their red face due to extreme nervousness. On the first day, the teacher is being frightened inside himself because he doesn't want to criticize of his teaching from others. He doesn't have much experience of teaching. He is not familiar with many questions, so that they cannot tackle it easily. No teacher should be encountered with many stupid questions on the first day after the class because he is nervous with all the new faces, and he became to confuse. However, I am not saying that the question which was raised to me was stupid, it was reliable instead. The question shouldn't be asked for asking question only, but it should ask instead to solve any query. So, we should co-operate with new teachers, try to make cordial relation with them and make kindly environment for teaching and learning!!

- Aayam Phuyal